Thinking of father when touching husband

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salam. may Allah reward you for answering my question which my friend asked on my behalf. i have a very disturbing problem which i feel very embarssed discussing with anybody else. after the incident which is mentioned below i have been having a very hard time concentrating on anything else i find it difficult to even think stright i keep on having bad thoghts about my dad naaoothoobillah. when i am intimate with my husband these bad thoughts keep coming into my head and i have to reapet to myself that this is my husband and not my father. i am very sorry if this is disturbing you but i have nobody that i can talk to. i have never had evil feelings towards my father and when i get these bad thoghts i reject them stright away. one way i thought i could get rid of these problem was just by facing it so i touched my husband and in my head i think this is my husband not my dad. yesterday i did the same thing when i touched my husband and in my head the first thing that popped in my hed was ‘this is my dad’ then automatically i rejected it by thinkng telling myself that it was my husband. at the point when i thought it was my dad i did not have any lustful feelings towards him but i am now really afraid that my thougts may have been voluntary in thinkng that my husband is my dad.
please note that when i touched my husband there was no evil intention towrds my father. i have been praying constantly and still these thougts will not go away. somwtimes i get confused weather my intentions are voluntry or in voluntry. i really need some guidance as this is effecting my life to the point where im always fustrated by everything and take it all out on my husband and the more i try to forget this the more it comes to my mind. i have also tried to keep my mind occupied with other things bt the thougts always come back. i hope to look forwrd to your comments on what i have mentioned. jazakallah.

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Asked on January 13, 2010 12:00 am
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Satan is playing absolute havoc with you. Every time this thought strikes you read 'La Hawla wa La Quwata....' Also increase Quraan Tilawaat also know that this is passing phase, do not let it bug you.
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Answered on January 13, 2010 12:00 am