Over period of years, in absence of my wife, I said many times to myself (in my mind and aloud) that i will divorce her and also that I divorce her.
we had in the past reconciled and even made another nikah
but over the years, something or the other would happen, and I would say as I mentioned above.
Due to her maniacal and suicidal state, I never told her directly.
A couple of years ago, again there was a major argument, she became crazy, and I told her its over, its over (meaning our marriage).
again, when she became sane and enquired, I told her that I meant her job is ove because she threatened to commit suicide and even kill the children and possibly myself too, I never told her the truth.
again, last year there was an issue,I went to her mother and told her to tell her daughter (my wife), that i’m giving her a few days to pack all her things, take what she wants from the house and leave.
My intention was divorce.
Her mother didn’t tell her exactly what I said, basically telling her to seek my forgiveness.
kindly advise on the state of nikah, if its possible to make another nikah?