I’m having trouble with my life right now, I do not pray and I commit a lot sins (still sinning) I feel depressed and sad. I want to repent but I can’t because I don’t feel sincere and I don’t want to be a hypocrite.
I recently found out my job was haram (I work from home, time my own schedule but I do sell pork pizza) I want to quit my job and actively seeking for halal jobs as a receptionist or office clerk. But I am dealing with huge amount of debts, I read that I can’t use my income to pay for my personal stuff. it’s been since summer that I try to seek another any jobs and no luck because I suck interview and I don’t have the requirement for that position.
I’m stuck right now. I want to repent but I’m dealing with riba and haram income. I know Allah(swt) is the most forgiving and the merciful.