Assalam o alaikum,
Respected Mufti Sahab, I read 1 ruku of Quran daily. The problem is that I have not been to madarasah, so the pronounciation of the words of the quran does not come out correctly as how a qari or an alim of imam receites. But I have managed to correct some of the words. But still I cannot recite it with its exact makhraj and aslo some times get baffled that which words will come out from the throat, which will come out from the upper tounge. How will I pronounce small kaf and big kaf. How will I pronounce ze and zal as both seems to me same pronounciation then why the difference. How to differentiate between (to) and (te). So all these are bothering me. Also I do not have so much time to go to a qari or Imam to attend class and learn. Also I feel ashamed that I am over 30 yrs of age and if I go to study at madrasah where small children also study I will feel embarrased.
So sometimes I feel that I am making so many mistakes and cannot also pronounce correctly so it is better not to read Quran as there is high possibility of making mistakes and becoming a sinner. What a pity that being a muslim, born in a muslim family, regard my self a an Ummati of Beloved Rasul S.A.W (PUBH) and cannot read QURAN. What face I will show to my NABI. HOW SAD? What to do Mufti Sahab, I was taught reading quran at home by my mother and sisters and ofcourse there was english school and education which we put more stress upon and so this was the result. What to do now, suggestto me.
2. The other problem is that I cannot read it fluently and quickly. I get stuck at mostly each and every word and have to recite slowly word by word which takes very long. I want to read it rapidly like how hafiz and other people who are not hafiz also reads it fluently. What to do for increasing the speed and also read it correctly. Please suggest.
3. In the office I lead the prayer as I am the only one who has a beard. So I become Imam but fear that I do not read quran correctly how can I lead as an imam. Though Alhamdulillah! I the surah fathiya and other small surah which are read in salah which I know are correct to the best of my knowledge and belief. But then also I keep getting these thoughts and I think that I should not lead the namaz and instead read the salah individually. What to do in such situation.
Thanking your for your valuable time and knowledge which you shared and are sharing and in-shallah will share with us. A good lot of people are definitely beneffiting from your Ilm and advice. May Allah T’wala grant you and your parents and your family and your well-wishers with Rahmat peace and prosperity in the life in the world and the world hereafter Ameen. Remember this sinful slave in your Dua.