AsSalamalikum Mufti Sahib,
I am sorry, if I am breaking the rules and editorial policies of Al Islam by asking same question twice, but will ask you to forgive me, for Allah, like your own son or a sincere student of Islam.
I submitted question no 11897 and wants to add some more details. Though I tried to articulate in accurate manner but still I am getting feeling that I am not missing some more details.
I am strucked with a situation. I am very careful about matter that make things haram and always update myself regarding the rulings of panels of muftis. Yesterday, I was having some fun moments with my wife suddenly she told me, “can I go” might be for doing some household chores or to offer salaah after asking me she was waiting for my permission and even I was aware what she was asking, but suddenly I got a waswasa ( whisper or thought) that if I said go then it will be implicit divorce though there is no intention of divorce but their was constant whisper that pronouncing the word may do so and for the same reason, I avoided saying the word “go” for at least two minutes by discussing other things but she insisted on permission and after that she told me “I have lot of household chores to do and also have to wash your clothes” and after that I told her that okay “go and wash” or might be “wash”. But Now I am greeting thoughts that I uttered only go and it may implied as implicit divorce.
Though there is no divorce intention but due to constant whispering of my inner self, I was getting those thoughts. After that incident I scold her (though I rarely do) for asking me that question and instructed her never to ask me question which may have words like “can I go”, “should I leave” and “should I go”.
I don’t want to give a divorce even once, but these thoughts are troubling me a lot. I always check my anger and avoid bringing those words to my tongue even in anger and in fun and always care for words that may be classified as implicit. But now I am having a thought that out of ignorance I did.
Is that divorce really happened.