I have read your answers regarding homosexuality. I accept wholeheartedly that it is harraam and completely against our faith. I have always had desires to the same sex , i have made dua to Allah many times to take these away and put what is hallal in my heart ,but this dua has not been answered. At 23 years old i fear it may never be. I will ( inshalah) forever deny these nafs and would never act on them. I love Allah and his religion and am very puntual with Salah and try very hard to constantly engage in good, listening to lectuers , tafseers and try to make my character like that of Muhammed SAW – i have committed my self to constantly struggle to please Allah.
I fear that i will never be able to fulfil my duty to get married , as i fear not being able to satisfy my wife. Again i have made dua – but it has not been answered. Should i get married anyway and possibly not do my wife justice? Should i not get married and live a selabate life forever (this is not sunnat)?
Mufti Saab – Allah knows i try very hard to be a good muslim and do good – but i feel that all this is all for nothing due to this curse from Allah ? How do i even rationalise it – is it a test from Allah or a curse of Allah or what?
Mufti Saab my whole life revolves around the worhip of Allah and i love Allah and constantly seek His forgiveness and mercy and make dua alot – but i feel totally lost on this issue sometimes to the point that i think Allah created me for Jahanam – which saddens me alot. I dont want to anger Allah and have accepted that i ma
y have to deny my self “satisfaction” or even be lonely my entire life – and am prepared to go through such hardship if Allah does not change my condition, in order to not anger Allah
Mufti Saab please advise me.