i have tried so hard to be a good muslim and i have alot of physical and emotional pain. i have been strong all these years but it is getting very difficult now. i went for hajj and i have alot of faith in allah. something happend to me and i feel that allah hates me and i don’t deserve any forgiveness.
i still cry myself to sleep asking him to forgive my sins and to put myself at ease.
how do i learn to forgive myself and how do i stop crying?
Have firm belief that Allah is the great forgiver of all sins, major, minor, open and hidden and read 'Husbunallaah wa Naimalwakil' 500 times daily, i.e. 100 times after every Salaat, anxiety, depression, crying, feeling will Insha-Allaah dissapear