Salaams
32, female, never married. I committed adultery with a non muslim who was separated from his wife at the time so he said. It was for four years. I dont feel good about myself I am very depressed and its affecting my life. I do want to get married and put the past behind me. My parents dont kknow this has happened. Will Allah forgive me. How do I go about repenting for this sin. I ask for forgiveness everyday. I feel Allah has deserted me because of this sin. I want to find my match. Doesnt Allah have someone for everyone. Very depressed but no good Is coming my way. Please help me. ..please. I dont want to grow old and be alone and be unhappy. Im unhappy at home im unhappy at work I want to find a new job. I am so stressed