Assalamalikum Mufti sahib,
I am struck with a situation. I am very careful about the matter that make things haram and always update myself regarding the rulings of panels of muftis. Yesterday, I was having some fun moments with my wife suddenly she told me, ” can she go” might be for doing some household chores or to offer salaah after asking me she was waiting for my permission but suddenly I got a waswasa ( whisper or feeling) that if I said go then it will be implicit divorce and I avoided saying the word ” go ” for at least two minutes but she insisted on permission and after that she told me ” I have lot of household chores to do and also have to wash your clothes” and after that I told her that okay go and wash. But Now I am greeting thoughts that I uttered only go and it may implied as implicit divorce. Though their is no divorce intention but due to shaytaan whispering I was getting those thoughts.
I don’t want to give a divorce even once but these thoughts are troubling me a lot. I always check my anger and avoid bringing those words to my tounge in anger and in fun and always care for words that may be classified as implicit. But now I am having a thought out of ignorance I did. did it really happen.
Jazakallah khair,