As salaam mu alaykum respected Mufti,
Your assistance if possible will be highly appreciated.
Every time I make dua that I stop watching pornographic material and stop masturbation, I will do the same deed that I made dua not to do. It is not a regular occurence as if I do the same sin daily.
It has been happening also now with that which I have to do, I did not read salah daily and I started reading my 5 times salah I had made dua to stay on the straighter path and during that week i missed more salah than the previous week and found extremely difficult to read the qadah.
I had stopped masturbation for two months, I avoided every hint of moving towards the evil habit. When i made dua that I stay this way, within a week of making the dua I had found the need to do the same evil deed.
I have found that if I do not make dua for abstinece of an evil deed or dua for keeping up a required field of life, it is alot easier to keep doing it. As soon as I make a dua to keep it up, I either stop or perform the same evil sin that I had previously abstained from.
I am starting to doubt my duas as I am also a student and exams are fast approaching, now that I make dua for my exams to be easy and for me to study I am more stressed than ever and the studying is just not working.
I have been practicing the act of masturbation for a time a long time I am aware of its consequences both islamically and on my health.
I have been going through the above procedure for variable lengths of time from a few days up till 2 months as I explained, It has been almost 3 years since I have been having this problem.
I initially understood it and took it merely as a test I am failing every time but what I have now realised when ever i make dua I masturbate.
I now avoid making dua for other people and myself and only make the arabic dua that is simply described as asking Allah for alll the duas Nabi Muhammad SAW asked fo.
Please could you tell me what is a solution to this, and, if any measures I have taken for it are correct.
I do not have the courage to approach a mufti in person and, discuss my personal problems, also circumstances surrounding my studies does not let me do that, even if I had the courage to do so.
Wa Alaykumus Salaam wa rah ma tullahi wa barakatu.