Assallammualikum. I am a 14 year old girl and i have many issues.
I have eating disorders** i also have depression, low self esteem and occasionally injure myself. I pray the 5 prayers and i sometimes make duas for Allah to help me and everything. I used to do it alot more, but recently don’t feel like it, as i don’t even know what is the cause of me hating myself so much and i don’t know what to do/pray for. please tell me what to do. nobody understands me and i have nobody to turn to. i know i should turn to Allah, but all i really need i think, is someone to be there for me who i can let my feelings out to, so i don’t take it out on myself. I hate myself extremely and feel no worth in this world. nobody shows true feelings of love for me and my brother abuses and bullies me. I am extremely quiet and keep everything to myself. I have no one.** I binge on food (i.e eat huge huge huge amounts in one seating) almost everyday and induce vomiting after or excessive exercise. i also occasionally starve myself (esp during fasting i will extend the fast) and scratch myself with pencils etc.
please tell me what duas to do. I have tried everything and i’m losing hope.