Over period of years, in absence of my wife, I said many times to myself (in my mind and aloud) that i will divorce her and also that i divorce her.
We had in the past reconciled and even made another nikah
but over the years, something or another would happen, and i would say as i mentioned above.
Due to her maniacal and suicidal state, i never told her directly.
A couple of years ago, again there was a major argument, she became crazy, and i told her its over, its over (meaning our marriage) Again, when she became sane and enquired, i told her that i meant her job is over.Because she threatened to commit suicide and even kill the children and possibly myself too, i never told her the truth.
Again, last year there was an issue, i went to her mother and told her to tell her daughter (my wife), that i’m giving her a few days to pack all her things, take what she wants from the house and leave.My intention was divorce. Her mother didn’t tell her exactly what i said, basically telling her to seek my forgiveness.
kindly advise on the state of nikah, if its possible to make another nikah?