(further to Question: 34479 – Intentionally pondering as opposed to mere thoughts)
Sometimes I intentionally ponder what if Atheism is correct and there is no God. Other times I intentionally ponder what if Hinduism is correct. Other times I intentionally ponder what if Christianity and the trinity is correct.
When intentionally pondering ‘what if…’, does it take me out of Islam?
Looks like you want to intentionally take yourself out of the fold of Islaam.
Link yourself to good, reliable, knowledgable Alim of Deen who will remove your erroneous pondering.
At the moment you are treading on thin ice.