Grinning in salaah and praying for death

Question ID: 34324

Aslm mufti Saheb.
Continuing to the previous question at times the following also happens”
I know to mock anything in islam or the sunnats or Nabi SAW or Allah SWT is Kufr, however due to severe OCD and waswasa. I know if i laugh at certain things it be kufr and i really have fear to lose my imaan.
At times its uncontrolable and i grin like for sallah. I know its wrong in my heart. i try me best not to, but feel helpless and cant control my actions
Kindly advice on the status of my imaan and Nikah?

Also many years ago when i was young i could have said or done things but my intention was never to mock anything in islam.
Also i reached a stage where a pray for death continoiusly. i cant handle these thoughts, OCD, waswasa, actions anymore
at times i feel as if though i am really fed up with life due to my circumstances.
These thoughts, actions are starting to affect my daily life with my family as well.

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Asked on September 18, 2017 10:11 am
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– You are a Muslim. Link yourself to a good, pious knowledgable Alim of Eden who is practical.
– Be positive. Do not let Shaitaan/Satan take advantage over you.

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Answered on October 1, 2017 2:39 am