Please please endevour to answerrthis question asap.
I have been suffering from anorexia for 23 years, and had many hospital admissions due to reaching dangerously low weights.
I feel so upset and have gone into deep depression because the illness has reversed, and I am struggling to stop myself from eating, and am gaining weight at a rapid rate, and it’s scaring the life out of me. Please understand this desperation and humiliation I feel, that I can’t control myself no longer. Why have I lost all control, after 23 years of managing to restrict my food intake???
I read salah, and am religious, but of late, I feel I’m being punished by Alllah, due to this uncontrolled eating. It’s really causing me great distress. I feel Allah is somehow angry with me.
My mother said I should be thankful that the illness is becoming weak, and that I am eating now. But she doesn’t realise that it’s out of control.
Please please advise me where I may be going wrong.
I really need help, before they admit to a mental hospital, as I feel so depressed and suicidal, due to uncontrolled eating.