As Salaam Wu Alaikum.
My name is ===== . I’m at a crossroad in my life. I had an argument with my mum a year ago and since haven’t seen or spoken to her. My dad left us when i was just 1 month old, my mum, the wonderful woman that she is raised me and gave me the best life. My dad returned 20 years later and it brought up some old feeling of resentment and hatred which i felt as a child. I’ve become this cold and heartless monster whom i cannot stand to look at in the mirror. It’s been so long since i last spoke to my mum and honestly i reached a stage where i don’t care if i’ll ever see her again, it like she’s a memory from a dreadful and distant past. I make du’ah that Allah (s.w.t) make my heart soft so i could forgive both my parents but it seems like i’m over-clouded with hatred.
Please advise what i can do with regard to this situation.